April resolutions...?

So, I'm not doing so good at this blogging stuff, sadly. It so fun to see others and I get all inspired and then...nothing. I feel like a lamo dork. I'm realizing though, reading everybody's blogs, that this could actually kinda be an out for me, a mini journal of crazed thoughts. I'm not so good at expressing my personal,deep feelings. I do really well at plugging on with life reagardless of what it is offering me at the time. Although sometimes I need to just let it out, but again, not so good at that. Well here's to, not a New Year's Resolution cause we all know how those go, but rather a mid-April resolution cause who knows that could be the key to it actually working..ha ha.

Here goes me, myself, and my feelings going on inside this little crazy head of mine...
I really am happy. My life is great, truly. My husband is wonderful and truly my greatest friend and fan. My little Cooper is the light of my life! I just can't get enough of those big brown eyes and Snuffalopogus(or however you spell it) lashes. I feel like a bad Mom sometimes when I don't spend as much time playing with him as I think I should have. (I'm sure we all have that guilt sometimes), but I just want him to know my adoration for him. I love and miss terribly my little girl(tears beginning to swell). I know she is in a wonderful place and that it really isn't that long until I will see her again, but dang it, I wanna talk and play with her now too. How selfish maybe? I am partially jealous cause I am actually kinda grateful I don't have to worry about her in this horribly wicked world, but yet still....I miss her. I know I still have major hormones going on, don't we all ladies..but I, I just want to hold her, kiss her, see her beautiful little face and feel that amazing spirit she has. Wow, seriously amazing spirit. I still feel her with me and it is such a strength. Just weeks after having Kate, I was put into the Young Womens Presidency, which I am so thrilled about, but I feel like between Kate and my calling Satan is doing overtime on me. Its hard to explain, but it kindof exhausts me. Am I making any sense? Probably not, but it kinda feels good to just let it out for a minute so please bear with me.. I am so grateful for a knowledge of the whole plan, for a personal knowledge of our Saviors love and concern for us, cause without it I think it might be so easy to get tired of the fight. I know and feel him helping me and cheering me on. What a blessing.
Sorry to have babbled on, but sometimes you just need that. Thanks...